alex bowman. (:

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-09-13T09:28:00

2009-09-13T13:30:01Z

this past week has really changed things, for the better and the worst.
i just need some consistency and i'd be goooood.
whatever.

oh, and my birthday is in 9 days! <3

first week of schoool,

2009-08-30T21:28:56Z

was so much more than what i expected. i adored it. i adore cypress. i adore the people. i really enjoy this school. my classes are alright, i'm getting to know people. atleast trying too. it's a little difficult for me. but i met quite a few people at friday's game. and got closer with some others. i'm seeing plenty of good looking guys. i dont know. i'm just so excited for what this year has too come. yayayayayay<3

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-07-29T17:41:00

2009-07-29T21:43:37Z

i spent the other day with odin, dante & ivan.
wow, what a day.

i haven't writtten allll summer.

2009-07-24T05:33:03Z

life is amazing.
i just cant get enough of this summer.
one of the best ones yet.
even though ive had so many ups and downs,
i'm enjoying it.

i'm kinda doing this long distance thing with john, <3
but suprising i love it.
he's just the most amazing boy, he treats me so well.
<3

i can't believe i might be moving.
yes, the economy here sucks, so bad.
but i can't imagine leaving the people i have here.
i just don't know what i'm going to if i have to leave...

um, i haven't wrote in ages.

2009-06-23T17:40:18Z

summer so faaaaaar; the first off me heather sam & eddie all went to busch gardens & i spent three days at sam's house. which was a fucking blast.

then me and allison when on the boat to fantasy island, which was fun, and it brought us close.

then i went to jay's and we went to the beach & ended up staying the night at logan's, with john. which was great. buuuut, me & jay had to be in just boxers, a shirt & b ball shorts. which was sooooo uncomfortable. ha, but it was worth it.

and then friday, i went to edison to casey. then me and allison went to belltower, and chillled with everyoneeee.

then, me & allison went cayo costa. omfg. that was the most amazing place ever, it's so god damn beautiful. the water was so clear, and the sunset was outstanding, i loved the two days we stayed there. i got so amazingly tan, and we got to go on the wave runner, me driving<3 it was just amazing.

then i spent the night at her house, and me went to coconut with john, logan, jon, and ofcoarse allison. and later on we ran into conner. gosh, yeasterday was a blast. i had really missed conner. and just being with those boys made my day.

um, and me and corey are still fighting, non-stop. like i was flirting yeasterday, alot. since i am single and me and corey made this whole agreeemenr. and then, the first time i really go out and flirt a whollllllle lot, what does corey do? flip a fucking shit. like we were fighting at coco, text wise. and e called me "dumb as shit" and like i was wanting to cry, and once everyone got there i got happy. and after i left corey asked me what i had done with the boys, and i said flirt and he flipped. and said he was planning to ask me out next time he saw me, and i had ruined it. but he told me the other day he wanted to be friends for a while. and not even flirt, with eachother. yeah, so it's fucking bullshit. i don't know why i can't let go. most of the time, i really wish i could. i'd probally be alot happier. but can't. he's meant so much to me that i can't let go. ugh, whatever.

and recently, i''ve gotten reallly close with this other kid. he makes me reallly happy. and he's someone i'd least inspect, but i'm so happy i have gotten close with him. even though, he's moving in about a week. =( well, i pinky promise you we'll have a rememberal time at the big house.

oh, about the big house, i can't waiiiiiit. it'll be me, jay, john & logan there for five days.<3
friday-tuesday. god, i can't wait, at alllll. <3

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-06-01T19:15:00

2009-06-01T23:28:43Z

corey martin, is everything everyone has ever told me he'd be.
he's just such a lying, cheating hypocrite, that i can't even stand it, anymore.
he's so fulll of himself, and can't even imagine how he makes me feeel.
he thinks he can do everything he doesn't want me to do.
and he has the right to get mad, but i don't.
the thing is, he wants to kiss amanda, the girl he cheated on me with.
yes, we are on a break, but i still feel it's wrong.
and he knows, even though he doesn't admit it, but he'd be done with me if the tables were turned.
he's just so stubborn, and yeah, i am tooo.
but he just doesn't see the wrong in what he's doing.
and like i tell him "if you kiss her, you'll be kissing me gooodbye."
and he says its not fair, and that we're not dating. and that we shouldn't have rescictions.
and that he doesn't wanna kiss her, but if it happens, he doesn't wanna feel bad.
but he knows if he does kiss her, he'll lose me.
and he says kissing her isn't worth loosing me, BUT he still won't promise me he won't kiss her.

god, i'm so fucking done with him, but i can't let go. all he does is hurt me. but i can't let go. i even have other boys, but i just can't fucking let go. i hate it. i know i need to let go, but cant. D:

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-05-18T21:14:00

2009-05-19T01:17:14Z

this past weekend was one of the best i've had in quite some time.
talking to odin while he was shit faced made my weekend. :D
and having heather around and drivig us every where with her country accsent,
yeah. that reallly made my weekend. <3
oh, and taking jay's black virginity. =)

& i can't wait 'til the last day of school!

grad night

2009-05-10T21:22:38Z

was nothing like i imagined. i'm usually the crazy one of the group. but i was just so down, i couldn't allow myself to have any fun. stupid assss corey. he even made me cry. whatevaaaaa' the bus ride there was my favorite, me and jay sat together with odin and steven in front of us. and bryan torrres behind us. and tyler and trent diagonallly ahead of us.
but i had the dripppy seat. :( but while it was me and jay, we borrow lauren's ipod. and was singing to the whole bus. like my dick and colt 45, and crazy bitch. l0l. it was funnnnnny.but cause of my dripppy seat i moved up next to odin. and he took a nap in my nap. while i talked with trent and tyler. once odin got up jay & trent switched seats, and bryan sat in my drippppy seat. and i turned around and we all talked.
OMG, trent was sssssooooo annnoying though, he ws playing score. but with anything yelllow he saw, l0l. and he'd never beleive me when i saw somethig yelllow. l0l. it was fun.

and the ride home was fuuuuun, me and jay sat in front of micheal and steven.
micheal was singing to us, ha. it was cute.
and me and jay borrrowed stevens ipod ad sung to the bus again.
and me and jaywee trying to sleep, and we came up with the wierdest ways, l0l.
oh, and we snuck micheal up to use as our pilllow, and mrs. fordiani saw us and fliped shit. :/
but whatever, it was allll gooood.

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-05-06T08:28:00

2009-05-06T12:33:35Z

well, last night's meeeet was alright.
i got first in my heat, so i looked good. ;)
and our four by four team got third. =)

but uh, corey not going really pissed me offff.
it feels like he doesn't care about me nor want to be with me.
well, i'll see. whatevaaaaa'.
the more and more shit he does to me.
the more and more the single life looks appealing. :/

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-05-04T21:55:00

2009-05-05T02:04:41Z

i'm so fucking nervous about tomarrow's meeeeet.
like fer realz.
and i'll probally be on my period for the eighth grade trip.
and i'm pissssssed.

oh, nd i haven't talked to corey since before i left for the bus stop.
and it's annnnoying me. >:/

whaaaaaateva'.

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-05-01T23:23:00

2009-05-02T03:27:55Z

so corey did cheat on me, i dumped him.
and cried allllll day at schoool.
then, i talked to him allll afternooon.
and i decided on a break.
then i talked to him for the rest of the night.
and after alll the begging he did,
i gave in. and i'm still with him.
which is good and bad.
like i love him and want to be with him.
but i'm so scared he'll hurt me again. :/

oh, but i had my closure tonight, i beat the shit out of amanda.
the litttle slut corey kisssed, and cheated on me with.
ha, it was the funnniest thing. <3
so i had a lovely night. =)

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-30T21:37:00

2009-05-01T01:45:03Z

so corey is grounded until the end of may.
jusssst greeeat.
oh, ad bailee told me he cheated on me.
and ______ told me she over eard ashkee and crystal talking about how corey wats to dump me.
and ashlee kind of told corey the exact oppposite thing about how long i'm willing to wait for him.
i don't know if that was intentional or not.
yeah, and i ca't tal to corey.
but i did this morning, and he said he didn't.
but i don't know what to believe.
yeah, so i'm fucking conffffused.

oh, and my dad is lways with another girl.
ths morning i wake up to him in bed with some chick.
yeah, after he's out all night.
on his fucking night.
yeah, that pisses me offf.

and jay canceled our plans for lauren.
yeah, that pisses meoff a bit.
but whatever. i'll just be stuck with my parents all weekend.

and i'm getttting my huuuuur done saturday<3

yeah, whatta crappy weeek, that's fer suuuure.

i havent written in a whillllllle.

2009-04-24T00:39:47Z

i made track finals.
my four by four team, fer sure did.
and i think i might of for my four hundred<3

god, last night i had such a great late night talk on the phone with casey and odin. ;)
and corey's pissing me off once again, jussssssst lovely.

oh, and tomarrow should be interesting.
me and lauren are stayig thenit at jay's, together.
this shall be interesting. :/

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-14T00:22:00

2009-04-14T04:23:50Z

today with corey was lovely.
we didnt do anything real special.
but i surely enjoyed myself.

expesially laying under our tree on the gulf coarse.
i love it there, <3

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-12T17:26:00

2009-04-12T21:32:39Z

easter was guuuuuuud.
i was the easter bunnnnny.
i got tah hide the eggz and jank.
and i got tons of hair shit.
+ a cute all recycled shirt.
+ caaaaandy.<3
yum.

but most of all, i can't wait to get home.
which should be in less than three hours.
hopefullly.
but yeah, i wont be getting a phone tomarrow cause my dad was being a prick.
and got mad and locked myself in this room instead of freaking out on him.
so he said no phone for a few days.
but i can't wait to see corey tomarrow.
but i dont see how this will work, with out me having a phone.
whatevaaaaaa' though.
i just need to work shit out tonnight.

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-11T19:05:00

2009-04-11T23:07:27Z

one day 'til i get home.
one day 'til i hopefully get my hair done.
& one day 'til i hopefully get a new phone.
two days 'til i see corey.
three days 'til i see whoever else at coco<3

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-09T16:21:00

2009-04-09T20:36:43Z

spring break '09, sucks.
horribly.
i can't fucking stand it here.
don't get me wrong.
it's nice here.
just i miss core & jay, more than anything.
i'm going nutz without them.
if i had a phone, i'd be okay.
but i don't.
i have no contact with the 239.
none, and i hate it.
i just wanna cry.
but i won't.
i have been so much lately.
i've lost my strong, no crying personality.
i hate this.

this is just to get my mind flowin'.

2009-04-09T20:17:15Z

If you were to have another name, what would it be?

Submitted By crazyprotein

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um, i've always liked the name marie. it is my middle name. a very very popular middle name, at that. and i've always hated alexandria. it's long. it's five fucking sylabees. i hate it. plus it sounds so fancy and beautiful. and i don't feel as if i need a name like that. i've always wanted a short and to the point name. i guess that's why i like to be called alex. it's short, four letters. two sylabees. and to the point. the one thing i don't like is, that it's a more commonly a boy's name. not that, that bothers me. i'm very much a tom boy myself. well less and less as time passes. but i still am. just i've always liked marie. always wanted to get it switched to marie alexandria bowman. even though it sounds so much better alexandria marie bowman, my parents picked a wonderful name. perfect flow. it's lovely. just i love the name marie. it might have something to do with how much an uncommon first name it is. plus when i was younger i had a bestfriend named marie. i rally looked up to her. just i dont know. i like the name marie, and if i were to ever change my first name, it would be to that.

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-04-02T16:48:00

2009-04-02T20:56:00Z

i was crying all of third period. and like crying in casey's arms. god i hate all this bull shit. i seriously had the worst night, last night. and then didn't go to school today 'cause i stayed home "sick", even though i do have a sore throat. but i went tah the beach today<3 i feel asleep tanning, and burned my whole backside. like my butt is totallly burnt. ugh. whatever, i dont have a phone, so i'm serssing everything. i think my dad is giving me his peice of shit one. oh joy. i hate it, it flips up. normal number shit, and has a fucking attenne! >:/ i hate it, so much. oh and it's brown and silver. EW! and ugh, i hate it. i hate everything. i just wanna cry, constantly. well, i'm probally going to school tomarrow. and ill talk to jay about going home with her, hopefully i can...
:/

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-03-31T18:57:00

2009-03-31T23:46:07Z

yeasterday, was great. up until my dad goes physco, once againnnn.
yeah, he really wrecks me, i was up all nigth dealing with his "i'm gunna kill myself" threats.
i was crying and woke up and went to school today, with puffy eyes. :/

but today was guuuuud. =)
i talked to ashlee wallace, and had a real heart to heart<3
i finished hit and run, and started another book.
i didn't have to buy a wristband and didn't get caught.
we won in untimate frissbe, even know i didnt do anything.
i was just talking with sid, gray & bryan. i love those three kiddoz.
and, then i found out that jay and i got into CYPR3$$!
i'm so happy and excited for next year<3
me, jay, casey, odin, carlee, jordan, ruby, and others all got in.
i just wish corey was going to cypress, but whatever.
it'll deal, i wish i could talk to him, though.
he has his phone taken away, once again.
but only 'til sunday.
but it blows, 'cause tomarrow, is our three month<3333
& monday, is his birthday, and idk if his mom will let me come over, so i wanna go this weekend...

my weekend was fantastic<3

2009-03-30T03:13:27Z

thursday, got picked up by jay's mom, went to eat with her gma and brother. then went to edison, where i had corey meet us<3 went home and spent the night. i put a pink streak in my hair<3

friday; woke up, went home and babysat alll day with jaylynnne. went to bellltower with corey<3

saturday, went out on the boat, with the family. my aunt came with and brought the jetski, we went tubing. and we were out on like 5ft swells jumping on the jetski getting like 5-6ft of air. it was amazing. oh, and i got completly burnt tah a crisp.

sunday; went to coconut with corey baby<3 it was an amazing just us too walking about. he bought me a book<3 yay! and we saw the beggining of the knowing. cause all movies started so late, :( it was sooooo good from what i saw, i reallly wanna watch it friday<3

i can't wait 'til spriiiiing break<3<3<3<3<3

btw, i'm soooo in love with corey, it's insane. like these almost three months have gone by sooo fast. i really want this to last, i've been waiting for a relationship like this, and now i got the perfect one<3 and even though he pisses me off and i flip shit and punch and kick him and what not i still love him, and he still loves me<3 ;) i ain't giving up on this relationship for nothing.

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-03-23T20:47:00

2009-03-24T00:58:10Z

i am so confused, you scared me so much. :/

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-03-22T19:48:00

2009-03-22T23:58:32Z

friday, i got another referal for helping bautisia cheat. then went to BT, which was pretty boring. but i got to spend time with chelsea & selinnnn, which was lovely<3 and i got to see heather for the first time in about a year, damn i missed her<3

saturday, me and jay cleaned the whole pool area, and cleaned the pool. jammed and tanned. l0l. then ivan came over for an hour that night. we talk about all his problems.

and, today, omg i had such a wonderful time. corey seriously makes me soooo happpy. i dont know what he does, but all his sweet words and gentle touch and sillly things he says, gotz me falling in looove. <3

oh, and btw,
i can't wait 'til spring fucking break! <3

$$$

2009-03-20T03:12:23Z

monday-FCAT was easy. got s refearl for texting in PE.

tuesday-track practice was guuuuuud.

wensday-dad's house wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.

today- was alright. i haven't talk to corey all day, he;s grounded for a weeek, so i've heard. and the funniest thing ever happened; denae came up and punched me in the hallz. ha, that was some funnny shit, i wish she woulda done it outta schoool. ;) but yeah, today was alright. i died in ultimate frissbee, l0l.

tomarrow, jaylynne is coming home with me from school. we're going to belltower. mike will be there, & hopefully corey too? eh, idk. :( oh, and i'm buying a new bathing suit, yay!

saturday- jaylynne's at my house, we're babysitting. ivan will probally come chill with us. =)

sunday- BEACH! hopefully mike and corey can come. but idk since stupid corey got grounded. >:/

aleeexbowmaaan @ 2009-03-16T00:23:00

2009-03-16T04:38:29Z

corey martin in one weekend, i completly re-fell in love with you, if that's possible. like that past two weeks of not talking much, and no seeing eachother. really took a tole on us. and like all this weekend you've been making me so happy. when you promised you'd be a better boyfriend, you really meant it. and your doing a wonderful job at keeping it. <3 baby, i'm reallly so in love with you, =)

soooooooo,
friday; went to belltower with jay, mike & corey<3 we walked around. and me and corey read dora books in barnes and noble. and talked about how we're dislesic. or whatever. and chilled in teh field for a bit. idk, i was just so happy to be around him again, i had been missing him so much. it was truly so wonderful to be in his arms again. so i went home with jay, and mike went home with corey, and we stayed up til 4am talking to them on the phone/ texting them. and those two stayed up alllllll night pretty much. and me and jay we're fucking with they're heads cause they sounded soooo high, when supposally they weren't. l0l. oh, and mike asked jay out that night. <3

saturday; we all got up, talked. and went to edison, me jay, mike & corey<3 we all walked around the mall for hours, and me and corey chillled in this dresssing room, lol. then finally decided to walk to the park, allen park to be exact. and the gulf coarse. we chilled at both of those places. at the park me and corey even got escourted out of the little kids park by a cop. l0l. and like we were laying under this tree in the grass on the gulf coarse. which was real nice. then we bought corey a new bowl, and we were just walking around enjoying eachothers company, kissing, hugging and talking. oh, and i found corey's weakness, l0l. like now i know what turns him onnnn. ha. <3 it's soooo simple too. ;) and yeah, we had such a good time. i'm soooo comfortable around him it's crazy. and he was saying the sweetest things to me. and like now, i can see the love he has for me in his eyes. which is an incredible sight.

and sunnnnday; was at my dad's chillled with ariel. it was alright, and now, i'm waiting to sneak out and go eat some f00d with ivaaaan.
that's if he ever calls me back, ha. we'll seeeeee.

so yeah, over alll my weekend has been pretty fucking amazing.<3